I miss Not Me Monday! Clearly after that going postal post, I could use some. Then there is the leg that I didn’t forget to shave yesterday before church. Before I get too far into that, let me catch you up. MckMama started Not Me Monday. I’ve been participating for a while. Her little MckMiracle, Stellan is very, very sick right now. His heart has been in SVT for far too long. His little 5-month old body is fighting though and so we pray. You can read Stellan’s story here.
This week, I agreed to participate in a special Stellan Style Not Me Monday! I hope I can do it justice. Like always, there’s a Mr. Linky putting everyone together so you can read other people’s Not Mes! Just go here.
This week, I didn’t stop several times a day to pray for a baby that I’ve never met but feel like I know like a member of my family.
I didn’t refresh twitter or MckMama’s blog about 1000 times just hoping to hear of another miracle.
I didn’t hold my children tighter everytime I thought about how blessed we are to be healthy. I didn’t kiss them a few extra times or appreciate them more as I thought of Stellan.
This week I wasn’t moved at all by MckMama’s posts as she sits at her son’s bedside. I didn’t wonder if I would ever be able to show that same faith and patience in a time of testing. I didn’t think that MckMama is the mama that I aspire to be.
I didn’t see Jesus working in MckMama, giving her peace and strength. Not once did I wonder how many people who didn’t know Jesus would finally see him through this horrible situation. I didn’t have tears in my eyes when I heard her say that no matter what happens, God’s hand is on this. Stellan is a miracle no matter what.